Even before I started writing the album, I knew it was going to be called “The Girlfriend Experience” and that it would deal with the fact that I had become the imaginary girlfriend to hundreds of strangers- and the differences between their perception of me and the reality of me as a girlfriend. Half of the songs are the hyper-sexual, living manga character that they fantasize about and half of them are about the things that my actual boyfriend has to deal with- my anxiety disorder and my codependent tendencies. The cover photos are actual “boyfriend pictures”- pictures that I texted to my boyfriend while I was on tour in Germany.
A week after my friend Devast committed suicide, I started writing this album one night when I started reading about serial killers on Wikipedia and got too scared to sleep. I started out working in bed with headphones on while whispering into the computer until my son started to kick me in his sleep, at which point I moved to the top of the stairs. A couple hours later, that track was “Summertime”- a calling out to lost friends, restless feelings, troubled love affairs, and the insomnia that I get every summer. Three weeks later, the bulk of the album was done.
When I mention relapsing in this album, I am talking about my OCD- which at times focuses on the checking and re-checking of locks; at other times, food anxiety to the point of anorexia, getting overwhelmed and hiding in closets at music video shoots, and of course, overcompensating with a completely fabulous DGAF stage persona. I’ve also co-opted the the term junk sick to refer to stress vomitting, which is not pretty, but is a real thing. Music has literally saved my life.
“The Girlfriend Experience” is the fifth full length album from The Sexbots. All my titles have double meanings. The term “girlfriend experience” generally refers to paying a prostitute for companionship and not just sex. As with all my albums, there is a video for every song on YouTube.
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The Sexbots are Ilima Considine- who sets her inimitable vocals against electronic soundscapes from around the world. During a band breakup, Considine was approached by several beatmakers who wanted a vocalist without the commitment of a band. The Sexbots brings to life a series of e-mail collaborations, carefully curated and art-directed by Considine- who performs alone. Surprisingly, the unknown band with no label, no management, and before the first show was even played outside Portland -managed to chart on CMJ with their first album. Since then, Considine has toured and released a no-budget music video for every song- entire albums can be listened to on youtube, accompanied by images of the bespectacled singer falling out of trees, dancing naked, or being repeatedly killed by her children’s stuffed tigers(the children can often be seen frolicking in the background). Along with an undefinable and shifting accent, Considine’s appearance is largely ambiguous- often androgynous, ethnically unclear(Irish-Chinese), with big eyes/tiny stature/theatrical gestures making it unclear how old or how serious she is about anything. She is entirely serious about the emotional inner world she charts- of a woman vacillating between love and sex, between need and regret. With a stage presence verging on performance art, Considine has received grants from both the Oregon Arts Commission and the Regional Arts and Culture Council.
Regret, jealousy, and desire are recurring themes. The music has always incorporated spoken word, weird samples, and the odd song structures of a classically trained violinist turned indie vocalist- unabashedly art pop with the heavy nostalgia that children of the 80’s have for smashed and deconstructed Nintendo sounds, primitive synths, cassettes, and shitty mics. Their third album "Junk Sick" was funded by a Kickstarter campaign whose rewards included "inappropriately long hugs".
I'm a trans-disciplinary artist based in Portland, OR. I'm the leader of a band called The Sexbots, I direct music videos, I write neoclassical soundtracks, and I can sometimes be found doing performance art and occasional art modeling/acting. I am available for session work on violin and cello.
Yes, I want to work on your soundtrack! I'm the mother of 2 kids. There are babies to feed, but I'm the queen of nanobudget productions, please send me your ideas and proposals. I am always seeking new collaborators.
I can be directly reached at firstname.lastname@example.org
"an intellectual, quirky genius who is exploring sexuality from the other side of awareness"- Hal Harrison
"I like it when you play violin. It looks like you're having sex... with yourself." -Marston Hall